Breathe

You cannot breathe deeply and worry at the same time. Breathe. Let the worry go. Breathe. Allow the love and intuition in.

~ Sonia Choquette

#ommmmmmamma

My Son needs me

My son needs me.

My son is now three years old and fills my days with the joys and angers of his "tantrumHood". It is not always easy. But we are learning to be better.

My son needs me. To stay sane, loving, and not go tantrum myself...

Every time I cry, and it's ok for mothers to cry, I see him stoping his process (a healing one most probably) and getting so worried (and afraid?) that he immediately puts his feelings second and tries to soothe me "It's ok mama... Mama, breath out..."

This is both beautiful and heartbreaking.

Yes #ommmmmmamma,

You will despair sometimes.

You will want to avoid, run from, ignore the "present moment". Why would you want to dive in and "be present"? When it is so unpleasant? 

Last month was full of teachings and I learned by experience that the only way is not to judge it. Not for a minute worry about others involved, focus on nothing but your child, yourself, and this challenge you are facing, nothing but this. Set your priorities straight, do not postpone mindful breathe and deep connection. Be here and now during a tantrum, accepting what it's made of, it's sounds and movements. Accept the thoughts that come to your mind, you feel you have failed, feel helpless, wrong, unworthy...? Do not judge these feelings... Let them sink in, so you can release them, transform them.

Let it be light again by surrender to how... Heavy it feels right now...

It's ok, even a ommmmmmamma feels lost sometimes...